what i really want to say is that this specific example,

this disagreement, this crisis that screams loud is not

what you need to focus

on today,

 

because this is a pattern stuck on repeat getting louder and

louder as trauma swirls and grows.

 

instead, take a deep breath and dive beneath the surface,

courage gathered in close, ready to swim

 

because in the depths underneath are where

the catalyst lies, back to the start when thoughts

discombobulated and ways of coping formed.

 

they may have served you well back then

but are not supportive now, unhelpful

even, inviting harm.

 

underneath the surface is where essential,

constructive clues are accessed, and if you go back

to the beginning, the source of what is blocking the

essential oxygen required to deeply breathe,

the rich nutrients necessary to flourish and blossom and grow,

this is where dynamic adjustments lie.

 

this is the deep-seated and holy work that is painful indeed, but that

ushers in freedom and lasting change–that will then influence

the current crisis booming loud and demanding that is gripping

your thoughts today.

 

that doesn’t mean that every problem will vanish instant, but you

will be better equipped, more able to actively handle what comes today

and every day,

to step outside of patterns long established and habitually traversed,

to gather in agency and skills for new and improved pathways

ahead

 

and continue to swim towards freedom.

 

—this is easier said than done and might require the support of someone to specifically assist, but this lifechanging process is worth every stretched muscle and dollar spent to find it.

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