for perhaps a year or even three

i wondered—not fully in doubt because i had

too much evidence gathered through a lifetime

of experience that you are real

that you are good

that a life spent with you is a life

worth living

 

but all the discourses of all the thinking

and reasoning and logic of others

did make some part of me wonder

even if just a bit—and it kept me from you

from being able to fully appreciate you

to talk openly with you

and especially while my mind said i did

my heart struggled to fully trust

 

but then at the right and honest time

after i had grown in ways that were needed

and in ways that i now appreciate

even if i do not fully understand

 

and while nothing else has changed really

the veil of my dimly lit heart was raised

and now i see you clear again

now i feel you near

 

and now—even though some days are hard

i am once again confident to the depths

of heart and soul

 

and i say like that woman in the desert

so very long ago—that while there are still

situations difficult and while i know the

road will have patches uneven ahead

this one thing i understand

better than ever before

 

that you are the One-who-sees

really sees me

as well as understands

deep down into the core

of a very human heart

a heart like mine

 

there is nothing that escapes your gaze

and you have all of these situations

securely firmly safely held

in your loving hand

 

Heather Pound 2024

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